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Thursday, January 27, 2011

Glee Marry You Full Video HQ

I want to share my new cheer up song for myself... "Marry You by Glee"

Promise if ever I'm going to have a wedding it would be fun and lively just like this :)



It's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Well I know this little chapel on the boulevard we can go,
No one will know,
Come on girl.
Who cares if we're trashed got a pocket full of cash we can blow,
Shots of patron,
And it's on girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.
Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

I'll go get a ring let the choir bells sing like oooh,
So whatcha wanna do?
Let's just run girl.

If we wake up and you wanna break up that's cool.
No, I won't blame you;
It was fun girl.

Don't say no, no, no, no-no;
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-yeah;
And we'll go, go, go, go-go.
If you're ready, like I'm ready.

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.
Just say I do,
Tell me right now baby,
Tell me right now baby. x2

Cause it's a beautiful night,
We're looking for something dumb to do.
Hey baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

Is it the look in your eyes,
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares baby,
I think I wanna marry you.

After My Eat, Pray, Love Drama...

Five days is not enough for me... I think I still need some time but since I only have limited vacation leaves, I just need to enjoy my vacation to the fullest.

I really enjoyed watching Kasadyahan and Dinagyang Festival last January 22 and 23. It was my first time to experience the colorful, lively and happy gathering of Ilonggos in the city streets. The great mood is infectious and it was really a great experience. I did enjoyed eating various authentic Ilonggo foods on the street. For a moment I was sooo happy and carefree not even thinking what kind of dilemmas I left here in Manila. For me having the five-day vacation helped me realized that we only lived once and we need to live life to the fullest. I don't care what current state of my lovelife I'm in, all I wanted is to be carefree and happy. It also made me realized I have live my life before as a happy single person and surrounded by great friends. I believe whatever problems I am having right now with my relationships I can survive it.

Also, going to favorite places in my hometown helped me see my perspective. I know in myself I always go for what I want and need to achieve. I need to be positive about my future because nobody can decide it for me but myself. If there are still bittersweet memories or pains that I am remembering or feeling I know I will get by. It's no easy task to let go, forget and move on but I know I can manage it well.

Buti nalang I have one good friend from my previous job who gave me these words of wisdom that I really do appreciate:

Just seek God. Minsan dumadaan tayo sa magulo for us to realize what's valuable and what is our value. I pray you will know the right thing to do and the right to do what is right. Things happen for your good. And at the end of it all you will see that. Go, go, go!

I sought the Lord and he heard me and delivered me from all of my fears, Psalm 34:4


Here are some of the snapshots of my Eat and Pray version... Yung Love kasi wala eh... :P

















Tuesday, January 18, 2011

My Eat, Pray, Love Version...

Pardon me for being so emotera this January. I've been in the dumps in the past few weeks and I need to take a breather to make sure I stay sane. My birthday is coming next week and I don't feel like celebrating it with some attached emotional baggage on my end. I know I do sound pathetic nowadays but can't help but feel sad sometimes. This is not what I expect to happen and this is not the end I had in my mind. And sorry for writing so many uninteresting notes about my current state of emotions but I need to vent out and this secret blog is the only place I can put all my frustrations, anger and sadness.

Anyways, even this week is sooo gloomy because of the unpredictable weather (just like my mood) I am looking forward for my four-day adventure out of town in Iloilo. Yes, I've been going to Iloilo for the nth time and I can't help but appreciate the place. It is the only sanctuary I knew free from all the worries and problems I had here in Manila.

And since I want my personal self-discovery and realization I am planning for a four-day escapade at Iloilo to de-stress. For me to be able to do this, I am having my own personal Eat, Pray, Love version there next week.




TOP REASONS WHY I LOVE GOING TO ILOILO:

1. Iloilo was full of my childhood memories. The smell of green pastures, the gentle rustling of leaves in the Lolo's trees, the herd of dogs, and the place where my dad grew up gave me sense of relaxation and reminds me of happy times

2. The fields behind my Lolo's house is the perfect place to unwind, relax and think all things in perspective. And I badly need directions now.

3. It was easy navigating around Iloilo City. It was like my second home.

4. It is near the beaches if I want to indulge in a short swim or trip to the sea

5. All my favorite food is available here!

For my Eat Pray Love version adventure, here are my plan:

EAT:
1. Been craving for authentic La Paz Batchoy. I will visit the original Deco's branch to sample their famous La Paz Batchoy

2. Been craving talaba since last year. I will eat all seafoods I can manage to eat

3. Will eat at Tatoy's for the 3rd time

4. Look for all my favorite childhood foods while there

5. Share food with my relatives. I love visiting my relatives houses to sample great foods!

PRAY:
1. I found a place to pray and relax for a while. I will visit the Trappist Monastery in Guimaras for some enlightenment.

2. Will visit again the Sta. Barbara Church with my idle time

3. Will visit St. Anne Church in Molo, Iloilo. It is a feminist church and I want to go inside the church again

4. Will attend Sunday mass early in the morning and will listen to priest's homily in the traditional Ilonggo dialect.

5. Will visit Leganes church if I still have a spare time. My mom said that the church has miraculous stories before.

LOVE

1. Will celebrate my birthday with my relatives. This is the first time in my 20++ years to visit Iloilo and celebrate my birthday

2. Will visit my Lola and relatives on my mother side

3. Will do some soul-searching in Iloilo. See where my life is heading me right now. All I need is some directions and refreshing start so that this 2011 would not go to waste.

Hopefully this Iloilo trip will be a fruitful and meaningful trip of my life. I badly need some vacation and enlightenment. When I go back next week, I hope I am already fine. I need to pray to ask for guidance and directions.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

This Too Shall Pass Away...

Last night I can't fall asleep for no apparent reason. Just to end my sordid state, I tried to dig up my old letters coming from friends whom I treasured dearly. I was reading randomly hoping to fall asleep since it was already 1:00 AM. Then this one particular letter caught my attention, it was from my college friend KC. She gave me a letter with this very beautiful poem and dated July 13, 2000 (I didn't realized that the date on the letter was coincidental with someone's birthday... which freaked me out a little)

Here it is:

"This Too Shall Pass Away"

When some sorrow, like a mighty river,
Flows through your life with peace - destroying power
And dearest things are swept from sight forever,
Stay to your heart each trying hour;
"This too shall pass away"

When fortune smiles, and full of mirth and pleasure
The days are fitting by without a care,
Lest you should rest with earthly treasure,
Let these few words their fullest import bear;
"This too shall pass away"

When earnest labor brings you fame and glory,
And all earth's noblest once upon your smile,
Remember that life's longest, grandest story,
Fill but a moment in earth's little while:
"This too shall pass away...

At KC, grabe this poem is already 10 years in my possession. Who would have thought in times like these it would be a guiding words of wisdom in the current state of my life? Thank you for sharing this wonderful poem :)

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Emptying Thoughts...

This is the first time in many years I felt the emptiness. I know I am not feeling well emotionally… Been reading hopeless romantic quotes hoping to catch the sparks of love, drowning myself on alternative and rock music hoping the pain would go away, appetite is losing, watching movies mindlessly and trying to relate myself on make-believe. For so many years this is the time where I feel so empty and sad. Too empty that even tears can't fall out freely but draining every ounce of self-control and rationality left. Too angry to be angry anymore, too mad to throw things out and you will find yourself sitting in your room with a vacant thoughts and staring at nothing. You try to write your emotions, trying to figure what to do and fight the immense pain of seeing his face haunting you. Even when you’re asleep he keeps invading your dreams like he was a nightmare straight from hell. All you wanted is peace and solitude. You wish sometimes that your mind is like a computer memory space that you can format when bad sectors invades your disk, like our mind when trying to forget bittersweet memories that keep popping in your mind like it won’t go away…

Things moved up so fast that you can’t grasp everything in your hands. The next thing you knew it was already gone. Just like sand castles built in the seashore, waves crashing in and tumble everything you build up. You can’t explain how you are feeling and wish you were somewhere far away from places where his memories keep disturbing you. You know you need to be happy and you need to fight the sadness you feel. You try your best to let go but it was hard. So hard that sometimes you feel it would kill you instantly, and if not instantly maybe someday…

You look for places where peace is present. You sit on empty chairs of chapels and churches hoping that the pain and sadness will go away. Pray that everything will be alright and wish there would be sunshine after the rainy clouds. After a few minutes of silence you go back to reality and face the hurtful truth. Damn, I wish this pain will go away… I can cry all I might but it won’t be suffice enough to save me from the sadness it caused. I hope in due time everything will be alright and I have enough reasons to understand the cause of this pain…

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Emotera Moments

Since I am on my way to my hell months... I found a new hobby, reading quotes from the movies I can relate and movies that I liked... Hayyys when this badtrip, frustration, anger, sadness and confusion will end???

From Miss You Like Crazy Movie:


"Time is meaningless when you're in love..."

“ANG PAG-IBIG MAY SARILING TIME FRAME…KAYA HINDI DAPAT PINIPILIT”

“Okay na ko e. Pinilit kong kalimutan ka for two years. Tapos ngayon babalik ka kasi libre ka na? Kasi pwede mo na ‘kong mahalin? E putangina mo.”
— Mia Samonte, Miss You Like Crazy (2010)

I can’t take all the pain that I’ve caused you.. But if you will just let me, i will spend the rest of my time making it up to you.

“Apat na taon na akong nakikibagay sa’yo at sa mundo mo dahil mahal kita.
Pero ikaw ni tumira dito hindi mo magawa para sa akin?
Eto ako Daph. Eto naman ang mundo ko…old, musty, falling apart and not exactly your taste.”
— Allan to Daphne.


Bea: naiimagine ko naguusap ung dalawa eh
John Lloyd: anung sinasabi nila sa isa’t-isa
Bea: masaya ako kapag kasama kita
John Lloyd: ako rin…

Bea looking at John Lloyd…

John Lloyd: sabi nung isa..


“Bakit ba tayo may second chance? Maybe because this is not for us to have happy ending… But to end things right.”
— Mia - Miss You Like Crazy

“Isa lang ang puso mo dapat isa lang ang laman nyan.kailangang mamili ka pero pagnamili ka may masasaktan.Kung di ka naman mamimili dalawa silang sinasaktan mo.”

Mia to Allan
"Sorry?sorry saan? sorry dahil sinaktan mo ko? sorry dahil pinaasa mo ko? sorry dahil hindi ako ang pinili mo? dalawang taon sinubukan kitang kalimutan.. tapos ngayon guguluhin mo ako kasi libre ka na? kasi kaya mo na akong mahalin? eh PUT*NG IN* mo!"

Ryan to Allan: (nakalimutan ko name ni ryan eigenmann sa movie eh)
"my point is, love isn't the only reason why we choose to leave someone.. or stay with them"

Mir to Mia
"I don't care if you feel that i don't deserve you, if you love me less or if i love you more. what matters is mahal na mahal kita."

Mir to Allan
"Fate gives us one chance, you had your chance and you blew it. This is my chance now, there's no way in hell you'll come between us"

My Amnesia Girl Movie Quotes:



Irene: Alam mo, baka di ka na makauwi.
Apollo: Bakit?
Irene: Eh kasi nasa isip na kita.
Apollo: Alam mo kung bola ka baka di kita mai-shoot?
Irene: Dahil lagi mo ako mamimiss.

Irene: Ulan ka ba?Kasi lupa ako, sa ayaw at sa gusto mo sa akin ang bagsak mo…

Apollo: “Tumatangkad ka ba? Kasi dati hanggang balikat lang kita. Ngayon, nasa isip na kta.”
“Lumiit ka ba? Dati kasi hanggang ulo kita, pero ngayon nasa puso na kita.”

“Para kang tae… Di kita kayang paglaruan.”

Irene: “may mmda ba dito? nagkabanggaan kc mga puso natin!!!”

Irene: Mahal kita.
Apollo: Sana pirated CD ka nalang para paulit-ulit mong sabihin ‘yan.
Irene: Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita. Mahal kita.

apollo: lumabas ka ba kagabi?
irene: huh? hindi!
apollo: wala ka kasi sa panaginip ko kagabi eh..

irene: ikaw ang pintura ko..
apollo: bakit?
irene: kasi kinulayan mong buhay ko..
irene: para kang dictionary
apollo: huh?
irene: kasi you give meaning to my life..

apollo: (on the Phone) bumili ka na ng salbabida..
irene: bakit? magsu-swimming tayo?
apollo: hindi! baka malunod sa pagmamahal ko

apollo:asan ka kagabi ?
irene:andito lang ako .. bakit ?
apollo:kaya pala wala ka sa panaginip ko

apollo:alarm clock ka ba ?
irene:bakit ?
apollo:eh kasi ginising mo ang natutulog kong puso

apollo:kandidato ka ba ?
irene:huh ? hindi
apollo:boto kasi tatay ko sayo eh

“Maging cactus ka man, handa akong masaktan… mayakap ka lang.”

“May MMDA ba dito? Nagkabanggaan kasi ang puso natin.”

“Kung ikakasal ka saan mo gusto? Ako kasi sa tabi mo.”

“Ihi ka ba? …Hindi kasi kita matiis eh.”

“Para kang alak… ang lakas ng tama mo sa akin.”

Irene: Sino ako?
Apollo: Ikaw si Irene ko. Ikaw ang mapapangasawa ko. Photographer ka.
Irene: Mali. Pulis ako. Ikaw kasi ang most wanted ko.

“sine ka ba? kasi sarap mong panoorin”

Apollo: Bakit ba hinahanap ang isang tao?
Peachy: Kasi gusto mo siya?
Apollo: Hindi, kasi nawawala.
Irene: Bakit? Nawawala ba ‘ko?
Apollo: Hindi, pero hindi ka kasi mawala sa isip ko eh.

Bagyo ka ba?
Hindi baket?
Ang lakas ng dating mo.

“Alam mo bagay sayo yang damit mo. Pero mas bagay ako sayo..”

“sana perfume ka na lang para suow-suot kta palagi”..

“Hika ka ba? Kasi you take my breathe away.”

“alam mo para kang table of contents, kasi ikaw ang topic sa bawat pahina ng buhay ko.”

Meralco ka ba?
kasi ikaw nagdala ng liwanag sa buhay ko.

para kang pustiso. . . . . .i cant smile without you

Bangin kaba?
Kc sumasabit ang puso ko sau

“Alam mo ba na pwede kitang idemanda ng trespassing? Kasi basta-basta ka na lang pumapasok sa isip ko!”

Kutsarita ka bah..? kase hindi kumpleto ang kape at umaga ko pag wala ka ee…

Sabi sa census may 11 milyon na tao sa Metro Manila. Pano mo malalaman na nahanap mo na yung taong para sayo? Maaring nakita mo na siya pero yumuko ka para magsintas. Maaring nakatabi mo na siya pero lumingon ka para tingnan ang traffic lights. Maaring nakasalubong mo na siya pero humarang yung pedicab.

May mga maswerteng tao na nahanap na yung taong para sakanila. May mga taong patuloy na naghahanap at may iba na sumuko na. Pero yung pinakamasaklap, e yung na sayo na pinakawalan mo pa.

“Irene: Sabi mo maganda naman ako,mabait, masayahin..bat iniwan nya parin ako?

Irene: Partida ah my amnesia na ako,pero ang sakit pdin..T.T

Apollo: Kung natatatangal lang ng isang yakap ang kasalan,kahit habang buhay ko syang yakapin mawala lng yung nararamdaman nya..

Tatay ni Apollo: Nabubura man ang nilalaman ng isipan ang puso hindi..”


10 Things I Hate About You Movie Quote:




Kat Stratford:

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Cameron: She never wanted me. She wanted Joey the whole time.
Patrick: Cameron, do you like the girl?
Cameron: Yeah.
Patrick: Yeah, and is she worth all this trouble?
Cameron: Well, I thought she was, but you know, I...
Patrick: Well, she is or she isn't. See first of all, Joey is not half the man you are. Secondly, don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want. Go for it.

Cruel Intetion Movie Quotes:




Sebastian: You spend all your time preaching about waiting for love. Well here it is. Right in front of you, and you're going to turn your back on it. So I guess we're just f*ucked. I'll move on. But you are going to have to live the rest of your life knowing that you've turned your back on love. And that makes you a hypocrite. Have a nice life.

Sebastian: Why can't we be together?
Annette: You wanna know why? Because I don't trust myself with you.

Sebastian:
Dear Annette, I don't know what I could possibly say that would rectify the harm I've caused you. The truth of the matter is that being with you was the only time I have ever been happy. My whole life has been a joke. I prided myself on taking joy in others' misery. Well, it finally backfired. I succeed in hurting the first person I ever loved. Enclosed is my most prized possession. My journal. For a long time I considered it my trophy. A sordid collection of my conquests. If you really want to know the truth than please read it. No more lies. Please give me another chance. I'm a wreck without you.

Notting Hill Movie Quotes:




Anna Scott: You know what they say about men with big feet.
William: No, I don't, actually. What's that?
Anna Scott: Big feet... large shoes.

William: It's as if I've taken love heroin, and now I can't ever have it again.

Anna Scott: Can I stay for a while?
William: You can stay forever.

William: I live in Notting Hill. You live in Beverly Hills. Everyone in the world knows who you are, my mother has trouble remembering my name.
Anna Scott: I'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.

Bella: The more I think about things, the more I see no rhyme or reason in life. no one knows why some things work out and some things don't. Why some of us are lucky and some of us get...

My Bestfriend's Wedding Movie Quote:



When you love someone, you just say it, right then...out loud,
otherwise the moment just...passes you by.

My Suuuuuppppeeeerrrr Late December Post

December 2010 is the busiest months for me. There are so many memorable happenings but also one of the most stressful month in my year. I should have different entries for each but I am too lazy to wrote every details so here are some of the highlights of my happy and sad December.

1st Week of December:

Went to Legaspi and Naga with my office ka-berks. The usual gang invade the Bicol region during December 3 and 4. AM, RS, JG and I were having a blast site seeing the beautiful Mount Mayon and visiting the Camarines Sur Sports Complex. Also I would really like to extend my warm thanks for AM and her family for accommodating us in her grandparent's house for an overnight stay. :)








2nd Week of December:

JG and I toured the UP Diliman campus and he was really glad to show me around his college Alma Mater. Actually it was an unplanned Saturday gala since he had a get together with his HS best friends later in the evening. The UP Diliman sidetrip happened because he invited me to try Banapple restaurant in Katipunan. It all started while we were having dessert at Pizza Hut in the Fort a week earlier. He recommended to me that Banapple's Banoffee pie is delicious and affordable so we decided to try it one weekend. (I need to ask for the pics of the delicious lunch we had at Banapple)

3rd Week of December:

- Preparations for our Christmas Party. I was sooo stressed looking for a Hawaiian costume for the party. We are required to wear Hawaiian costume since our party will be held at Mandarin Poolside. We also had an unexpected win for our Hyperglee Christmas party performance. This was also the week where our good friend MR leave the Philippines to join her future husband in Singapore.



A Week Before Christmas:

I find this the most magical week before Christmas. This week was full of dinners and get together with friends. I was strolling with a good friend around Greenbelt and Bonifacio High Street during the evenings and had great dinner conversations. December 24, proven to be stressful one but came out as the memorable day of my year. I won't say so much details but I had a wonderful time cruising Ortigas Center before the Christmas day with a friend... But come December 25 that is another story... :(


Last Week Before New Year:

This is my hell week and will continuously provide my suffering. No more, no less. I won't put the gory details because I want to forget everything and as much as possible keep an open mind about the whole thing...