Late Post: Break Up Diaries

From: weheartit.com

Endless nights of crying to sleep. Binge-eating chocolate and any sweet pastries you can get your hands. Watching DVD marathon of romantic-comedies and other funny chick flicks just to make you feel good about yourself. Minus the fact that after a few sordid moments of movie credits you’ll be back on your bawling marathon. Reading chic-lit novels just to ward off the harmful thoughts. Dreaming in your own room wishing one day he would come back or wishing you will find a much more deserving man in your life. Living in denial that nothing is changed in your life. You sneaked one or two bottles of vodka just to fall asleep and forget those sordid days when all got to do is fight and rebel against each other. Shopping-spree like there’s no tomorrow wishing those beautiful shoes and dress would make you feel better just because deep inside you feel ugly and unappreciated. You even went on going on a solo trip just to find yourself. You splurge on a fine dining restaurant alone just to enjoy the perks of things your ex didn’t do to you. You were even contemplating on yourself if you’re going to avail checking in a five-star hotel on your own just to pamper your tired heart and mind.

These are the common scenarios during break-up or most of them anyway. It will left you hurt and broken. It feels like you’re drowning in sorrow and madness. You feel like this won’t end and you feel like you were cursed straight from hell. If it weren’t for that career you’ve been working for years, you’ll be devastated again as hell. Girls always went through in this scenario. No matter how old you are, you will always experience the pain of breaking up in the relationship. No matter whose party it was on deciding the big B, it will always be painful and depressing. We’ve been through different stages of relationship and in journey of finding THE ONE we always encountered the truth that breaks-up really hurts. Break ups can make or break us. For some it would mean sinking deeper into despair, desolation and depression. For some it would be a momentous realization that you deserve someone better than that scumbag ex of yours. For some it would make you fiercer and more motivated to prove your ex that you are way better without him. Whatever circumstances break up brings, always remember this, things happen for a reason because God knows all the time what type of person is suited for you. We weren’t thrown into a situation that we can’t come out unscathed. Also, break-ups are another way of embracing new chapter in our lives. We may be regretting or crying over our ex because of all issues and problems that weren’t fixed while in a relationship. Be thankful it happened because something more beautiful, exciting and adventurous life awaits us. I know, I know, break-ups are shits and I am a living testament that it really is, but always generate a positive outlook, that it is the start of something beautiful in our lives. Dry those tears, cheer yourself up and pamper yourself. Who knows that someone better than your ex is just around the corner. It’s no easy feat but sooner or later, you’ll get better and happier.

Late Post: End of Days...

From: weheartit.com

What is love and commitment anyway? Two simple words but when put together, it bring a lot of meaning to someone else’s lives. All of us went through the different phases of relationship. When we were young we are blinded by the thought of love: Roses, letters, romantic dates, looks and sappiness. As we grow older, our ideas and ways on love changes. Some may be for better or some for worse. I must admit I got a fair share of heartbreaks, happiness, anger, madness and some crazy episodes on taking the journey in love and in search of “the One”.

For more than a few months now, I ended up my six-year relationship. A lot of people were surprised especially on my ex’s side since they were expecting we will end up together. I expected that too, for a long time. I’ve been waiting for a long time. Sometimes, I even asked my ex what is our plans and directions in life, he couldn’t answer me. All he can say is I’m too young and he’s not ready. At the back of my mind, how young is a 27 years old girl and why the guy is not yet ready when he’s already hitting early 30’s. A lot of people would think this is just an episode of serious soul searching. Trust me, I’ve already done that plenty of times, it even came to a point that I went outside the country to find myself lost in translation of our so-called relationship. Sometimes I feel like I am single and sometime I feel like I’m in a relationship, 50-50. There are times I need someone when my moodiness kicks in and yet I have no one to turn to. Sometimes I don’t feel that special. I feel I was never a top priority above all other things. Sometimes I cry in the dark hoping everything will be OK and I would be able to bounce back, cheering myself that we will take the further step in due time. But deep inside, I am not OK. Subconsciously I am already looking for a great diversion in my life. My ever trusted journal would tell you, how frustrated and sad I am for the last 10 months. My journal is my lists of all the accounts in my life and ideas about my current feelings. I know that journal signifies what I am feeling for the last 10 months. I am not happy like what I am trying to portray to everyone. I am trying to have fun and don’t seem to mind that I go out without him, but deep inside, it hurts a lot and that he doesn’t even care to know my dearest and closest friends. I know I am not perfect, I do have weird quirks and have my own set of moods but I am trying to put up a fight in our relationship. I’ve been trying to ask him for the longest time and we even went through a series of arguments because of commitment and plans. Sometimes, guys think that girls are materialistic and demanding but there are just few things that are very important to us: time, love, commitment, future plans, assurance / security and simple effort. For me love and commitment alone would be important since it signifies the rest. You cannot commit to a person if you are not secured and assured. You will love the person more if there are simple efforts put up in the relationship. I’ve been trying to hold on since our last break up. Four years ago, we broke up for a reason that he found someone else aside from me and yet blindingly, I still accepted him and love him like the first years we were together. But those memories bore a deep wound inside of me. Our relationship was like a broken glass and for many years I’ve been trying to hold on to those broken pieces of glass. Even if it cuts through me and it left me wounded, I was still trying to hold on to it. I was trying to salvage our broken glass and in the end, it hurt me more and left me bleeding for years.

I know the experience in that six year period was not that easy and to be honest, it was not that easy to let go. Thinking about the pain, the happy times, memories, the sadness, tears, promises, words, disagreements, frustrations and anger, it can still make me cry. Nobody says breaking up is easy. Even if you were the one initiating the whole thing, it was too complicated. I know some would say that what I’ve been through is a five year itch, but heck, we even managed to go through six years and yet our relationship did not survive. I know it takes two to tango, we did have our own set of mistakes and I wouldn’t hide the fact that I was already in a rebellious mood six months before I ended up our relationship. I was too confused and lost. Confused, because I know I have reached the crossroad in my quarter life crisis and it doesn’t help that I am lost in the direction of our relationship. There was no assurance and security. For years I’ve been waiting, even the simplest statement such as, “I will take care of you”. I already accepted the fact before that he was not the romantic type and he possesses the attitude of being insensitive and stubborn. One of my friend even commented that our love story is just like “One More Chance” and I utterly disagree. In the movie Popoy has future plans with Basha, it was Basha who called it quits because she was already suffocated by Popoy’s controlling ways. In our own set of story, he does not have any plans for us and I already changed due to deep hurt and frustration. I am just a human, not a superwoman. In the long run I managed to put up with everything that’s on the line, sometimes I even felt I could even sell my soul just to make this relationship grow. Everything will still come to an end because relationships should not be a one-way street, but a two-way street. I know I put everything on stake on this relationship and there was no easy way out... But I need to make a heart-wrenching decision: let go and move on. This is the only way I can only figure out myself and stay sane for the rest of my life. I am neither a robot nor a superhero, at the end of the day; I am a simple girl with simple wants and needs. That simple wants and needs in a relationship is deeper commitment. Times change and things change... so am I.

Thankful

It's been two months since my last post. Nothing happened much but I am just thankful on the blessings that coming in our way. I'll just post my late messages here since I am quite busy nowadays.

Bakit ganun, once I logged in at Blogger I always forgot the thoughts I want to share. Anyway... next time nalang yung iba ulit. I'll check my notes on this one. I forgot my handy notebook. Then someone special gave me a black Schutzen Notebook but I never fill out the pages... I am still thinking what to do on that notebook. I want it to be a very special notebook. I am reserving it either for our travel tales or just a random thoughts about us. I'll be back. I'm still need to gather ideas muna.

The Baliw Playlist

From: muscleprodigy.com

I had to laugh at myself for my crazy playlist since the start of 2011… I must admit that one of my favorite activities aside from reading and travelling is listening to music. I have a massive variety of favorite playlist since high school up to present. I must admit that over the time, my taste and likes in music and genre had already shifted from the boybands to alternative bands and mellow to RNB. My dad once gave me an Ipod Nano during my 24th birthday because he knew how much I love listening to music. But the 4GB storage could not fit all my favorite music and it keeps growing. Thank God that last year I won a 1TB HDD storage during our company Christmas party to cater my kaadikan in my music playlist and store lots of album collection. While I was sorting out and backing up my files in my laptop, I get to see my music folders sorted out based on my mood for the last 6 months.

For the month of January to March here is my favorite playlist that played more than a hundred times:

Yiruma First Love Album - by the Korean pianist Yiruma. This was recommended to me by my good friend/officemate Manong Raf. Super romantic and pang-chillax mood. Para din sa mga gusto ma-inlove ulit or para din sa mga stressed out na gusto ng konting peace sa buhay. Kahit na badtrip ako mismong Valentines Day keri ko pa naman sya pakinggan noon.

My Emotera Playlist collection… What's inside? Super laughtrip… di halatang badtrip nung January, February at konting inis pa nung March… :P

- My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne
- Fuck You by Lily Allen
- When Love and Hate Collide by Def Lepard
- Thinking of You by Katy Perry
- I don't Wanna be your Friend by Nina
- Almost Over You by Sheena Easton
- Someday by Nina
- Could've Been by Tiffany
- Grenade by Bruno Mars
- What the Hell by Avril Lavigne
- Fuck You by Cee Lo
- The Story of Us by Taylor Swift
- What I did for Love by Lea Michelle, a.k.a. Rachel Berry
- Waiting for the End by Linkin Park
- If We Ever Meet Again by Timberland feat. Katy Perry (hindi ko naman masyadong like nito si Katy Perry???)
- Somebody Kill Me by Adam Sandler (taken from Wedding Singer OST) - well, I'm not suicidal but I just want to get a good laugh while listening to Adam Sandler rants on the song. Ramdam mo emotions nya eh :D
- I Don't Want to Fall by Juris

Promise I looked so pathetic in those months… But well, there are no mistakes only life lessons… according to…. :)

Come April, May and June my favorite playlist shifted. For the first time in 3 months after 2011, I learned to smile and face all things that were source of my problems and misery. I had to admit my playlist are quite happy and hopeful. And who would have thought it would help me in creating a new chapter in my life? :)

My feel good playlist:

- Viva La Vida by Coldplay
- Marry You by Bruno Mars
- I do by Colbie Calliat (the song she sang during the after party of Prince William and Kate Middleton's wedding :))
- Falling for you by Colbie Calliat
- Collide by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
- Collide by Howie Day (at hindi rin ako mahilig sa song na may "collide" na titles?)
- Let's Just Fall in Love again by Jason Castro
- Marry Me by Train
- Everything by Michael Buble
- Summer Rain by Matthew Morrison
- I'm Gonna Be Around by Michael Learns to Rock
- With Me by Sum 41 (this always reminds me of Chuck Bass and Blair Waldorf's limo scene during the end of Gossip Girl season 1 episode 7! Tanda ko talaga! Hahaha)
- You Got Me by Colbie Calliat (at hindi ko naman masyado na rin like si Colbie? )
- Starlight by Muse
- Fireworks by Katy Perry
- Born this Way by Lady Gaga
- On the Floor by J Lo (wala sa sobrang upbeat nya super like ko)


So there goes my baliw playlist… :P

Broken Glass

From: http://www.myemospace.com

This is one of the life-changing decisions I made in my life… Pardon me for my late post.



I know in myself that I am independent. But there were times I feel lost and confused. Lost because I feel like I don't have someone in my life who will take good care of me, that it took me a while to find which direction in life I am heading and confused because I really didn't know what to do with my life if I'm going to end my relationship.

From: deviantarttattoosgirls.blogspot.com

I must admit after the break up it left me into broken pieces… but it wasn't as painful like what I felt last January and February 2011. I know earlier this year that things have fell apart and changed but I am too afraid to admit that we cannot fix things the way they should be. And I am living in denial that some issues and problems we encountered last year cannot be resolved in just a few days or months. I know for the past 7 months I've been trying to hold on to broken shards of glass which is the representation of our fragile relationship. No matter how much I tried to fix and glue the pieces, the glass won't come back in its true form and those broken pieces I tried to patch left me wounded as ever. It hurts to see someone you used to loved cry at the very thought of ending things together. But it will be much worse if I still try to hold on knowing the truth that there would be no "us" in the future. I got so scared when he admitted to me that as of this moment there are no plans and goals for us. Only excuses and false hopes just to ward off the fear of losing our relationship… It hurts because the love you nurtured for years has fallen apart. It hurts because the promises and dreams you built were just castles in the sand. It hurts because the words he hurled at me during our endless arguments left me questioning our relationship and its value. It hurts because no matter how much I tried to see the light of things for us, I know that I am just delaying my burdens to ease the pain. Those delays did not help me and it just carry on for so many months that reached into my saturation and breaking point.

I am sad but relieved. Sad because I know there would be a special place for him in my heart which contains our glorious memories together. In those 6 years we've been together we also built friendship and connections. But I need to make a heart-wrenching decision. Decision that would help me move forward and start another chapter of my life. I feel relieved, because I know that I did the right decision which is to find my true happiness. Start my life with new hopes and promises. Dreams that is not built in sand castles but on sturdy rock which is a foundation for the better future. As I closed this chapter in my life, I want to start my life in a dreams that became reality and embrace the future with a smile and forgot the tears that fell from my eyes saying goodbye.

Friendster is Closing Down.... or should I say Upgrading..

How do I react when I heard the news that Friendster is closing their site? Well, to be honest I was a little bit lonely since it was the first social networking site I joined in. I remembered that I joined Friendster around February 2004, just after finishing my college degree. I didn't even know my own personal reason why I created an account, maybe during that time nakikiuso ako at nagpapaka-feeling teenager :P. But on a serious note, Friendster helped me locate my long-lost friends and relatives, keep in touch with my closest friends, talk to my students and found out how my ex-bf cheated on me (hahaha, nagpaka-hacker?!)... in a way Friendster strenghtened my relationship with friends and family, except for ex-bf. hahaha. (Uy move on na!)

Even though Facebook has overtaken Friendster because of its cool features, simplicity and keeping well-connected with friends and relatives, I still maintain an account in Friendster and one of the reasons is because I love reading my friends' testimonials about me. I used to remember that me and my friends liked to exchange testimonials and quotes with each other because it was fun leaking secrets and describing each other. Yung iba nga bago ko bigyan ng testimonial, pinag isipan ko talaga ng matagal bago ko isulat yung mga best traits nila. Pero minsan di ko pa rin maiwasan na hindi sila ilaglag or ibuking. Hahaha.

So since FS is going to erase old testimonials and photos, I keep some of memorable testimonials from my friends, classmates and students gave to me. And to be honest it was fun reminiscing them :)

Here are some of my favorite testimonials:
From KRL:

Last night a friend forwarded a text message to me, It was a simple heart
warming message my friends are my medicine when I'm in pain, my letter when I'm
far, my smile when I'm sad, my hanky when I cry, and my life when I die.. Thanks
for being one... C_____ has been one great friend. She knows why, I don't need
to explain to the world why. You should find out for yourself what I am talking
about. She is a tough shoulder you can lean on. Open minded and willing to
compromise, you can share many things with her without apprehensions, she'll
tell you things you wouldn't expect she'll tell (or probably things you expected
but really don't want to hear), but as they say, true friends are the ones who
will tell you the things you need to know no matter how hurtful it may sound. As
I am struggling, I learned that she can be your heart when you are numb, she'll
lend you her ears to listen, she is a clown to make you smile. Thank you for
being a great friend

From my Grad School classmate AS:

This is ___: Beautiful, sexy, Intelligent, eloquent, always likes to share herideas. Wide-reader kasi.Serve her seafoods, she'll be delighted. You can invite her to your province, isama nyo na rin ako hah. Sarap maging kaibigan si C.
Good luck, C. Sana marating mo lahat ng nais mong marating. God bless you.
always remember: "We love you"

From my college friend MJM:

Hello 'C',.. whats up? Hows life any way? hehe,.. Well all i know about heris... She's nice, pretty and very intelligent person. and now she's taking her
masteral and i wish you goodluck C i know you can make it, ikaw pa',....
hehe,...Anyways wherever you are right know i wish you goodluck, goodhealth and
goodlove',... Ok see you around sometime friend,... U

From my Eng'g student EDR:

Hi miss... remember me??? ahehehe! wala lang nakita ko lang un pic mo and bigla kita namis...well guyz! naging prof ko to sa AMA binan Da' Best to magturo bukod sa cute siya kaya masarap makinig eh hanep talaga magturo... tipopng kahit tulog ka mapapaginipan mo un tinuro niya... harharhar! isa to sa mga nagutuhang prof
ko sa AMA when i was in first year.. Una palang 2 thumbs up na ko dito and also
magaling din xa makisama with her students.. napaka down to earth nitong taong
to at feeling ko laging masya ang mundo niya know y guyz?? kasi walang araw na
di nakangiti yan! SMILING FACE ika nga! hehehe! Miss, miss na namin keo...pede
talaga keong tandem ni miss mich pareho kayong 'da best! let me give you a
salute! "YOU'RE THE BEST!" miss... Ingat po lage! and godbless you always for
being a nice and wonderful person...See yah!

From my HS friend LP:

Sexy talaga nating tatlo, lalo na kapag nakatalikod!!! Hehehe!! Sama ka ulit?
Hahaha!!! Miss kna nila mamy, kaw daw c bestfriend!!! hahaha!! Wla daw cla radyo
dun!

hmmm. syempre sweet yan,kta nman sa name eh.sister ko yan since
grde 1,nung nagaway kmi.hehehe.friendly,maingay kya lgi kming npapaglitan,mkulit
at higit sa lahat...pareho kmi lagi ng crush.. haaay buti nlang d p kmi
nagkakapreho ng bf...iyakin yan lalo na pagdting sa ....secret.. mdling
istorbohin at hgilpin kc alm n alm k hide out nyan! matalino pero hindi
pasensyosa!! promise ... parang wild animal pag nagalit.. kaya boys wag nyong
gagalitin yan.. mkamandag yan!!! mis yah!!

From my another HS friend IL:

helooo! photos u posted love it! ur right wlang panget n picture evrything willbe posted kelan kya next trip hope to fly with the two of u again. Im glad u shared ur birthday with us. Luv u! Muah

we jz had a bonding yesterday yet miss q n kyo take care alwyez i am really thankful to have u as my friends. Ooops! gling ah! pics are posted agad. Love u! Muah!

From my office friend MR:

I really miss this girl ! C is a jolly type of person kaya nga I luv to hangout
with her, she's a very nice person inside and out, physically she's beautiful
(as in Korean beauty) and sexy (khit n malakas kumain hehehe), she has a strong
personality that can influence anybody, she's independent and smart, she knows
how to make u laugh when u'r sad, she's a good listener and a good adviser. What
I lyk bout this girls is that she's a true friend and thoughtful, kya lhat ng
friend niya luv din cya, keep it up C! Miss u so much =)

hi C! Tnx 4 inviting me last sunday! I really luvd ur "Pacham Pasta" ur a better cook dan me im juz following ur footsteps hehehe... cge po s uulitin =)

i really love this girl coz she's full of enery pag ksama mo sya d kau mwwlan ng pag-uusapan & she's also supportive as a friend, m so hapi 4 what she is now coz she deserve it =) Luv u C!

bout C, shes cute, sexy & smart inggit me kc khit lakas kumain d nataba. Shes really fun to be with, gud listener at mhilig s food juz lyk me, hehe kya mgksundo kmi nyan e. Mrming kming gus2ng gwin ng mgksama gaya ng plano nming mgMasteral,
mgShopping, kumain s Japanese Restaurant, mgBar etc so far wla p n22pad hehe but its ok kc continuous nman bonding nmin s KFC. Dmi kong mmimiss d2 f ever n
mgkhiwalay kmi someday. TC!

From my Eng'g student MJ:

ah...cnu to...?! c mam c...naku ang super duper kulit nameng prof date sa
ama...hai...miss na kita...hehe well to tell you honestly guyz...c mam c...super
duper bait nito as in...ang sarap kasama...kahit na student niya lang
kame...she's like an older sister to me...sobrang sweet...ang sobrang
cute...tignan nio nalang xa...hehe..well ang galing nito sa computer...wahahaha....tsaka ang taas magbigay ng grade nung nasa ama pa xa...magbestfriend nga sila ni mam mitch...ang galing magbigay ng advices at sobrang easy-to-go with...and fun to be with... well as i have read...matakaw ka pla...hindi kasi halata...hehehe...ang slim ng body mo unlike me...tumataba na talaga...hehehe... mam...secret lang natin ung mga sinabi ko sayo ha...as in lahat...hehehe...miss yah...love you.. tsaka nga pala mam...thanks po talaga salahat...nxt tym ung continuation nito…

From my dear college friend KC:

c C.. sya ang genius ng tropa nmin! cpag nyan mag-aral nung college kme (til now nman eh).. leader kng leader! sweet, dependable, bait (hirap nga nyan
impluwensyahan minsan eh!).. ang lakas nga lng ng boses khit san, prang lagi
kyong magkalayo magkausap! pro yan c C mdali po yang msaktan & minsan
madadala ka tlaga sa knya pg umiiyak.. kc mpagmahal yan c C eh, she's willing to
offer everything she can s mga taong luv nya (ay with few exemptions pla..) kya
daming friends din yang tropa kong yan eh! tnx 4d friendship! luv u po cheepy!!!
=)

From my CS student RC:

well wala me talaga masabi pag dating sa kanya! she is one of my favorite
instructor promise!!!!! cguro kung magkakaroon man ako ng girl frend gusto ko
yung tulad nya, she is the type of person na for keeps talaga!!! alam nyo kung
bakit? mabait na super cute pa! weakness ko mga chinita!!! ahihihi!!! well
seriously masarap ka kwentuhan cool sya sobra, nahihiya na nga ako minsan
graduate na kasi sya ako di pa hehehehe!!!! pero ok lang kung grumaduate ako
agad malamang di ko na sya nakilala, at isa pa wag nyu galitin mataray yan,
minsan na late ako sa quiz di na inulit ung number 1, pero ok lang lesson sa
akin yun hehehe! so yung mga nag babalak na mag pa late, mag dalawang isip na
kayu, baka matapos ang karir nyu hehehe!!!, well all i can say is!!! more power
stay cool and stay as cute as you are. Chow!!!!

From my college classmate WB:

Hey C-mint! She can be compared to a nerd's brain in a sexy, foxy lady. Sobrangsmart at lumalaban when her ideas and principles are correct. Hope to see you
soon C! I hope hindi ka kinakatakutan sa AMA, hehehe. LOL. Cheers to us all!

Hi Miss C-mint, Sya na ngayon ang pumalit na terror pagdating sa mga
Thesis defense. At sya na rin ang bagong Terror ng AMA. joke. hehehe. This girl
is really witty, we use to have a n EDUCATIONAL ARGUMENT about things that can both enlighten our knowledge about certain things. I know that she will continue
to be the most competitive person and her perseverance can let her go places in
the Industry. Hoope to see you soon, 50 cent C-mint.

From a college professor:

C's one of the coolest girl I have ever met. I have been seeing a lot of C before, but that was when she was still a student. Yup, payat na siya before
until now. He He He. Sabi niya, suwerte daw sila because there was never a
chance na naging panelist nila ako. He He He. Threatening ba ako? Magaling kasi
silang pumili ng room. I get to work with her early this school year, she's with
Rona who was my batchmate. Masaya kasama si C. I can say that she's to be
considered as one of the boys. Game yan, lalo na sa biruan. That's what I admire
about this girl, kahit medyo suplada eh, she can blend in perfectly. Looks can
be deceiving, she's really slim but her appetite's really good. Di ba Mitch?
Lagi kayong may date sa Wendy's? He He He. Too bad I left the organization, di
ko na siya makukulit more often. But one thing is good, we remain friends. Sana
makatikim ulit ako ng vegerroni (anu nga ulit ang tawag nina sir parreo dun? he
he he) mo. Good luck sa career C!

From my HS classmate and ka-batch JD:

HEy guyz check this out!!!! who's this girl na sobrang kalog pero san ka astig talino??how about this!!! who's this girl who have a cute eyes na kung tumawa e
wala ka nang makita sa mata nya...hmmp lam nyo na? well e2 pa..Closer Closer..
Who's this girl na naging best in academic namin nung HS ...RAPHAELIAN ROCKZ...
ALAM NYO NA!! well kung di nyo talga kilala.. PWES problema nyo na yun.. dami ko ng binigay na clue.. grabe na…

From my HS classmate RC (who also passed away na :():

Si C lagi syang naka- smile,mapagbigay sya ung laging ng hingian ng face powder at baby cologne, hiraman din yan ng suklay at mirror. Magdala daw ba kc ng
malaking cologne!!!hehehe She's our top one ang talino! Goodluck sa
lovelife,Always keep in touch ha!!!

From my HS classmate and barkada JP:

Si C na ata ang pinakamakulit na taong nakilala ko sa balat ng lupa!!! She's kind and cheerful and so daldal. Siya rin ang intsik na magaling mag- english at tagalog. C's a great friend and no one would ever says she's not. I think
sooner, she'll be the mastermind of crazy websites and viruses in the world
(hehehe!!!). Nway, goodluck and wag ka muna mag-aasawa ha!!! lovelots: Dark
Angel (Dangerous but charming!)

From my Elementary classmate and kalaro HMP:

si C?! hay naku parang ilang dekada na rin kame hindi nagkikita nitu..
schoolmate ko cya since elementary and naalala ko pa nga na 10/20 queen 'tong
babaeng 'to at gusto nga atang ka-reerin lahat ng laro (jackstones, jump rope,
etc.) parang punong-puno cya ng energy! hehe.. nakakamiss yung mga time na un
noh? nweis, sana magreunion tayung lahat para masaya and always keep in touch.
good luck and blessed be dear friend! muah :)

From my Elementary and HS classmate and friend CP:

Si C...classmates kami nyan since grade 3 until high school at isa lang ang masasabi ko,hanggang ngayon siya pa rin ang CS na classmate at kaibigan ko.di pa
rin siya nagbabago hanggang ngayon.very proud nga ako sa kanya kasi graduate na
siya ngayon so guys,kailangan e galingan nyo ang pagdiskarte sa kanya kasi may
maipagmamalaki na siya sa lahat ngayon.!!!alam mo nung nabasa ko yung testi mo
sa kin,naalala ko lahat ng mga memories natin noon.yung mga nilalaro natin every
recess time,after class,etc.nakalimutan mo yung larong moro-moro na kasama ang
boys.grabe nagflashback lahat sa kin yun.salamat sa lahat ng memories na yun.i
will cherish it forever.basta goodluck sa career mo ngayon, sa lovelife,tsaka
regards sa family mo.alam ko,napakarami mong kaibigan ngayon di lang sa
friendster kundi sa real world.napakafriendly mo tsaka lagi kang naka-smile

From my Elementary classmate and best friend YP:

my childhood days wouldn't be complete, sweet and memorable without C..grade 1 to grade 6 kasama ko to..sa service,sa fieldtrip,sa lahat ng kainan sa smcl,sa lahat..she has always been there to inspire me,cheer me up,make me laugh,teach me lessons in life,listen to my nonsense speeches..hindi namin malilimutan ang isa't isa..kahit si leo. hehe. those were the days: how we loved leo and sweet valley, how we enjoyed writing letters to each other, how we loved talking over the phone and just be in each other's company. at hanga ako rito, matapang to.
love you, C!

From my previous officemate and friend CB:

namimiss ko na tong babaeng to eh.!!! C girl.. dami na nagbago noh.. dami ko namimiss na gngwa natin.. mga kalokohan, kulitan.. haay ... thanks pla ha kht dna tyo lagi mgksama jn pa rin kyo lgi for me.. miss ko tlga bonding natin!!! loves you

From my grad school classmate WLC:

bout C, she's always have a word "hayaan mo sila.. wala akong pakialam" She is the CMMI girl of the troop. She's a good friend who you can depend on. Minsan topakin din. LAging busy with her work. She is one of the resource person in the troop. Always dress to kill tuwing saturday dahil laging me date. She'sexy and cute (libre moko ha?!..todo nato!)hehehe.. Thanks for everything C!

From my grad school classmate GA:

hay naku knowing her..masipag mag-research sa klase..nakikipag unahan sumagot kay Mhai sa klase..expression nito ay "ADIK" ewan ko ba sa batang ito..may katarayan din mana sa akin..hehehe..but enjoy akong kasama c C together with the chix joy group..sya nga ang nagbansag ng group namin...ingats lagi c..luv u

From my previous officemate and friend JP:

a.k.a COOKIE SUMUBO.. we've been friends for almost 2years.. i guess?!we were skulm8s way back in college but we never bcame close coz we had our own circle of friends. Thanks to.. wWow0WOMwoWOM!!! . at ngkakilala kmi ni cookie. Pg petiks mode s ofc, we alwayz hang out sa megamall, specifically!? c bestfriend CINDERELLA. We're both kikay but totally different in style and color combination. Favorite nya ang kulay PINK (db halata sa mga gamit nya!?). She loves to read that's why prti kming dmdaan ng booksale. ANd the bestpart of our friendship is... FOOD! every 2 hours, g2m nnmn.. no wonder, lhat ng nppsama smn e tumataba, namely... BOINK BOINK cherry! haha. Nbbansagan 2loy kming PG d2 s ofc, tga P&G.com dw kmi.I forgot to send this testi on the day of ur bday, sorry nlate. Belated Happy Birthday.. more con-cons to come, ay mali..birthdays pla! wink! Stay as PINK as you are ;) take care alwayz and dnt 4get to thank God for all the continuous blessings u receiving.

From my CS student AMC:

ammm...what can i say about this person...:) etong teacher kong to napakabait.///..:) magalng magturo tapos ang cute ng boses...hehehe...minsan tampuhin katulad ngayon...hehehe pero sweet to si maam...mapagkakatiwalaan pantay lang ang tingin niya sa teachers at students...hindi niya gusto bumabagsak ang mga students....hindi katulad ng iba na gusto talga bumagsak mga studyante nila...hehehe si maam ang secon ate ko sa school...kamukha siya ng ate ko...hehehe dati lagi kaming sabay umuwi...hehehe nanglilibre ng pamasahe...kakahiya nga eh....:) si maam sexy din, magandsa, matalino, cute, sweet, malambing, makulit, kalog, masarap kabiruan, masarap maging teacher, at napakabait....thats all folks...:)

From my Eng'g student NF:

Ms. S sobrang kulit niyn siya yung prof na sobarang lapit sa mga student niya.. well sa lahat cguro ng prof sa AMA cguro xa n yung pinaka magaling mkisama... magaling na mg2ro..mabait pa! san ka pa! hehehehehe mis na nmin 2 sobra!!!!!! sana bumalik na xa sa AMA binan ...;) hoping na mging prof uli namin xa..haaaaaaay.......sobarng nkakamis yung gni2ng prof....sna lahat ng prof gya ni2...pero sa tingin q "ur one of a kind!" mhirap ng humanap ng gni2ng prof.....swerte yung magiging kbiyak ng buhay ni2...n_n...hayyyyyyyyyyyyy...we miss you mam C.... bye!bye! inagtzzz po mplagi!

From my childhood friend JJL:

Ang cute mo pa rin hanggang ngayon. I remember when we're kids at El Dom's apartments every morning may sumpong ka. And you had so many toys. My brother and you always play. Every December we always have party with different games. You, the Bartolazo kids, Camela, R-Jay, and all the kids there in that neighborhood napakasaya. It seems yesterday lang. Take care and May God bless you and all your love ones. Ikamusta mo ulit ako sa family mo at kina Camela and R-Jay. Keep in touch!!!!! "L.Boogie"

Late Post on my Personal Reflections

From: vividlife.me

I am lazy in writing and posting notes in my secret blog. Sometimes when ideas and thoughts came to me, I always write them in MS Office OneNote or on my ever trusted journals. I have at least three journals, one is a small notebook stashed in my office drawer, the other two is kept in my closet in my apartment and in our house in Laguna. Sometimes, when I am reflecting, I just write anything that came on my mind, then if I am dead serious, I post them on my secret blog. Recently, I was checking my notes in MS Office OneNote when I came across my soooo late post on regarding on some 27 hard facts about myself which should be posted after my birthday last January. But since I got busy and got winded up on some personal matters during the last few months, I just forgot everything and let it sit on my files for a long time.

Here is my entry which should be posted last February 03, 2011.

My 27 years of knowing myself

1. I am daddy's little girl. My dad played an important role in my growing up years and I am always thankful on my dad.

2. I would really like going back to school as a part-time professor or trainor after finishing my graduate studies (ang tagal nang pending nito!)

3. I love clothes and shopping. I hate to admit that shopping is my therapeutic ways on cheering myself.

4. I don't mind being alone anymore. I can eat at restaurants alone, go to church and go to places I want to (like a mall)

5. I know I am a stronger person than before and I can conquer my fears. One step at a time.

6. I discovered I have a daredevil side in me. This year alone I tried the longest zipline in Bukidnon and rode Battlestar Galactica while in Universal Studios Singapore :)

7. I love shoes… and just like shopping, I really hate to admit that when I like a pair of shoes, it was like heaven purchasing them

8. I want to become a psychologist before. But now, I ventured into the wonderful world of Information Technology. Never regret pursuing my current career. :P

9. I am a hopeless romantic. I get kilig while watching or reading love stories or romantic comedies

10. I love books and it is one my biggest hobby: Buying and collecting books.

11. I hate being ignored or rejected

12. I always dream of going to Europe :)

13. I have proven to myself that I am capable of doing things by myself and not depending on others

14. I have playful and funny side but mostly I can be serious when it comes to serious matters

15. My mom used to tell me that I think ahead of my age. Maybe because I went to school early and most of my friends are older than me.

16. My favorite sanctuary is quaint little chapels. It helps me think and see myself in perspective

17. I don't know how to swim and got a near death experience while in Puerto Galera, but I still love to hang out at beaches :). The sound of the sea waves calm me.

18. I was 26 years old when the peak of my crossroads started

19. Music is part of my life. I can't work or think without any music playing in the background

20. I always dream of having a vacation house in our province. Another reason for me to visit my favorite place every year or if time permits

21. I hate being out of my comfort zone. I believe this also applies to my love life. That is one of the reason why most of my relationships are long-term and even if there are some serious issues or matters, I still try my best to fix it even if my closest friends advises me to run to the other side :P

22. I always had a hard time coping up with changes. Especially those situations that are unexpected and painful

23. I can be patient for those people I cared for but once provoked I do have one big, bad temper

24. I hate riding in boats especially cute little boats on choppy seas :P

25. I love wholeheartedly. And when I love someone, I give everything I can offer. This applies to friends and loved ones.

26. Sometimes on my crazy days, I dream of becoming flight stewardess, psychologist, ambassador, news correspondent, chef in Lifestyle Network (like Giada de Laurentiis) and travel journalist :)

27. I am self centered and vain. In short, kikay at maarte :P. But even though I am maarte and kikay, I can blend in perfectly in the crowd. (sige defend pa ang sarili)

From: theentrepreneurincebu.com