Another Non-Sense Post

I recently updated my blog layout and make sure it fits the description of my blog. Then I realized for almost one year of writing here I haven't posted or had a follow up on my shopaholic nature... Well I will try my best to put some of my kikay side here.

For now I would like to post my favorite high-heels I used to wear in my previous office. :)


My J-Lo pink lace shoes I bought last May at Rustan's Fire Sale. Who would have thought it was only P480.00 pesos ;) I got lucky that day!

Thoughts for the Whole Year

Someone just gave this very meaningful list of things to do to start the year right. Although first quarter of the year will pass, I just want to share this very insightful thoughts...




Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants..
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
5. Make time to pray.
6. Play more games
7. Read more books than you did in 2009 .
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need..
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with His/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree...

Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time w/ people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change..
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come..
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Starting Year of 2010

It's been a week since all the rethinking what are the things I need to do this year. I am not really used on putting New Year's resolution because I tend to break them. Instead I always put my Thank You wishlist which enables me to thank our God for all the blessings I received this year.

Blessings I am thankful last year

1. Dad came home safe last January 2009. He was supposed to take the US Airlines Flight 1549 which crash landed in Hudson River. Thank God he was booked on another plane in Charlotte, North Carolina next to US Airlines.
2. My 8 Stripes award in the office. It was unexpected but I really appreciate it
3. Bonuses :)
4. Trips I've taken and came home safe
5. Was able to survive Ondoy and our home was spared
6. Good healthy relationship with my family
7. Good healthy relationship with my significant other
8. Recession was hard in 2009. I am thankful I still have a job
9. Been able to see my close relatives and meet some of them last year

Next, I want to try doing all the habits I want to start and break based on my Belle Du Jour planner. Hoping I would be able to fullfill them this year.

Things to Do in 2010

1.Visit Boracay this year. Almost everyone I knew went to Boracay before, I’m the only one left 
2.Finish my Masteral Degree. 2010 is my FINAL straw!
3.Get the dream job I want!
4.Visit any South-East Asia country before my passport expires!
5.Remove my mole near beside my nose
6.Do my regular medical check ups
7.Learn Italian and Spanish language.
8.Do my dissertation. (No matter how hard it is. 2011 is coming closer)
9.Vote wisely
10. Go to Bohol. One of my local dream destination
11.Read more I.T. Books – see what are the unread IT books / titles that are sitting in my shelves not yet opened or read
12.Debt-free credit card this year!
13.De-clutter my closet and unused accessories
14.Keep writing on my personal journal. It’s helping me to cope up
15.Try the rappelling or the wakeboarding

Habits to Break

1.Forgetting to budget my money
2.My OVERSPENDING
3.My over-acquiring of clothes, shoes and books
4.My uncontrollable attitude of being “negaholic” sometimes
5.My procrastination
6.Being multi-slacker
7.Being tactless
8.Try to cope up with quarter life crisis
9.Try not to compare yourself with others. Life is a journey. I want to start my own unique journey in life that I will succeed!
10.Try not to be envious of others just like in item no. 9  (There I said it)- for sure I will get my luck this year. More bountiful!!!

Habits to Start

1.Recording all single transactions I made how I spend my money
2.Save up for the rainy day
3.Try not to be a shopaholic
4.Be more confident and assertive
5.Plan all tasks and do the time management efficiently
6.Exercise regularly
7.Eat more healthy foods and drinks
8.Buying more wisely and carefully

Well, I need to monitor these and make sure I can mark them off my list as accomplishments.

Long Delayed Posts....

NOTE: I am still contemplating if I should post this private thoughts of mine. I already posted this on my Friendster blog but change my mind and erased my whole collection of blogs. This entry is more like of thinking out loud and not to offend anyone. This is not the time to regret the what-ifs and the past but rather look back and be reasonable enough to think that things happen for a reason. I am always a firm believer that sometimes things don't happen for no apparent reason. God always have a grandeur plan for us. It is up to us how to grab the opportunity and use it for the present.


I know it’s been ages since the last time I wrote here. Summer break is almost over and I’m really savoring the thought and the time that I would be able to squeeze some of my precious times in any outings left for me and my friends and family. I am also re-reading the Twilight saga to really feel the depth and emotions of the books and of course be close to my so-called ideal crush Edward Cullen (lol at major kaadikan to…)

Speaking of Twilight Saga, re-reading it enabled my volatile mind to picture some people in my past who I relate to the protagonists of the story. While imagining the scenario in my mind, I remember one of college friend and I miss him a lot. He’s the sun in my cloudy and gloomy days in my college days. It really seems strange that after all these years I am still yearning for his company and hoping to patch things where our bitter and unexpected separation took us. Sometimes at night he still appear in my dreams like nothing changed and in my dreams we were both good friends. How I wish I could say the same things right now.

Recently, a friend of ours passed away. During those periods, that was the time when he started to appear on my dreams. Sometimes I woke up in the middle of the night and felt the cold sensation of his touch. It was a weird and sickening feeling. After four years of not contacting each other, that sad episode was the time I remembered him. Before I used to talk to his aunt and ask his whereabouts, but after a while I decided to cut the ties to his family to let him go and help me focus on my present life along with the people included in it.

Just this night everything changed, I really didn’t know what pushed me to organize my old stuff and found my old diary tucked in the hidden nook of my closet. The reason for keeping the diary in the darkest corner of my room is to forget all those not-so good memories and the past that contributed to my almost depression. I didn’t realize that my old diary was full of HIM! I even quoted messages that came from our conversation in cellphone text. I can’t believe myself. Who in their right mind would do that? I think I was just too blind in those times where I know the answers to my questions before. I won’t elaborate further, but let’s just say he was really something for me. I know it’s the past and yet he still haunt me in my dreams like he was the ghost I wanted to avoid forever.

But what would happen if one day I came across with him in an unexpected place and time? What would I do? Would I dare to talk to him and ask how he is doing? Would I run and hide like a maniac while avoiding him? Would I casually walk in front of him like nothing is bothering me? I am definitely clueless. Reading his old letters reminded me of friendship lost and bonds that were deeply severe. How can I let go of something precious in my life? During our college days he was the one who encourage me to do things beyond my dreams and expectations. I cried buckets and scream like hell when I’m sad and mad. But despite all my euphoria and craziness, he was still my very bestfriend I needed and depended on. Up to this day, I am still grateful for his simple words that became my guiding purpose in life. In some way he helped me see myself clearly and subconsciously, he took part in achieving my dreams and goals. I was just sad that I wasn’t able to show him what became of me. What I reached and how he became part of it all.

Every time I walk on a hallway filled with people, every time I stroll to a chaotic mall and every time I browse books on my favorite bookstores, I try to picture what would it be like when we’re still very best friends. I remember those chinky eyes lit up when he laugh, his curvy smile I love, the strong hold of his arms while I walk clumsily and the narrow slits of his eyes when he’s upset or mad. I even remember his repulse on the sight of an eight-legged creature called spiders. Beyond imagination, up to this very moment I try to ask myself what did go wrong that our friendship did not survive the unexpected odds hurled towards us.

When somebody asked me what would be my very wish, I always thought if it was possible to turn back time and try to correct things that should have happened. I used to blame fate and destiny for this surly output of my present, but when I look back and think hard, I know no one was to blame but me. It was my choice to let him go, it was my choice not to be friends with him anymore and it was my choice for keeping two important people in my life and yet lost them both on different reasons. If I did take risks and dare to be more open before, I guess my life; our lives would be very different. But who knows what’s in store for us? It is always a choice. Might as well live with it and cherish the thought that we might be not friends anymore but hoping in time, we can pick up the pieces we left and start over again.

Hayyy, my sentiments are soooo long it might bored a lot of people to tears… Don’t get me wrong, I love my present life. I love the current person in the center of my universe right now. I believe it is still fate that brought us together here. Siguro Lord knows that I am not only looking for a coolest guy bestfriend but also a great partner (hopefully in the future) in life. My college bestfriend was part of that memorable college past. Those great memories (just omit the bitter ones) of us would always be cherished but I want to be happy in my present life, which I am right now. I am always thankful to have someone special in my life now. He was not just a simple boyfriend but also a great friend. He’s someone who I can talk for hours on phone and in person and someone who brings happiness in my life. Lord knows how many times we fought, disagreed and even separated for a while but we did surpass that. When I was about to fall in my lack of enthusiasm in my previous career he helped me see myself clear. When I’m in one of my sour moods he listens to me and just hugs me telling me everything would be alright. We dreamed together and planned a lot of things, one step at a time we manage to get them (kahit mabagal yung progress… at least my progress! Haha). My bf always teases me about my college bestfriend but never did he feel jealous about it. Siguro dahil meron kami parehong agreement kaya it was never brought up as big deal. Hahaha. Whatever our reasons, one thing is for sure… I love him and he loves me. I am glad for what we have right now and I am happy that whatever I lost in the past, I got it in my present and in a much higher value. Kahit pagsama-samahin pa lahat ng precious moments in the past, nothing beats the PRESENT. :D