The Baliw Playlist

From: muscleprodigy.com

I had to laugh at myself for my crazy playlist since the start of 2011… I must admit that one of my favorite activities aside from reading and travelling is listening to music. I have a massive variety of favorite playlist since high school up to present. I must admit that over the time, my taste and likes in music and genre had already shifted from the boybands to alternative bands and mellow to RNB. My dad once gave me an Ipod Nano during my 24th birthday because he knew how much I love listening to music. But the 4GB storage could not fit all my favorite music and it keeps growing. Thank God that last year I won a 1TB HDD storage during our company Christmas party to cater my kaadikan in my music playlist and store lots of album collection. While I was sorting out and backing up my files in my laptop, I get to see my music folders sorted out based on my mood for the last 6 months.

For the month of January to March here is my favorite playlist that played more than a hundred times:

Yiruma First Love Album - by the Korean pianist Yiruma. This was recommended to me by my good friend/officemate Manong Raf. Super romantic and pang-chillax mood. Para din sa mga gusto ma-inlove ulit or para din sa mga stressed out na gusto ng konting peace sa buhay. Kahit na badtrip ako mismong Valentines Day keri ko pa naman sya pakinggan noon.

My Emotera Playlist collection… What's inside? Super laughtrip… di halatang badtrip nung January, February at konting inis pa nung March… :P

- My Happy Ending by Avril Lavigne
- Fuck You by Lily Allen
- When Love and Hate Collide by Def Lepard
- Thinking of You by Katy Perry
- I don't Wanna be your Friend by Nina
- Almost Over You by Sheena Easton
- Someday by Nina
- Could've Been by Tiffany
- Grenade by Bruno Mars
- What the Hell by Avril Lavigne
- Fuck You by Cee Lo
- The Story of Us by Taylor Swift
- What I did for Love by Lea Michelle, a.k.a. Rachel Berry
- Waiting for the End by Linkin Park
- If We Ever Meet Again by Timberland feat. Katy Perry (hindi ko naman masyadong like nito si Katy Perry???)
- Somebody Kill Me by Adam Sandler (taken from Wedding Singer OST) - well, I'm not suicidal but I just want to get a good laugh while listening to Adam Sandler rants on the song. Ramdam mo emotions nya eh :D
- I Don't Want to Fall by Juris

Promise I looked so pathetic in those months… But well, there are no mistakes only life lessons… according to…. :)

Come April, May and June my favorite playlist shifted. For the first time in 3 months after 2011, I learned to smile and face all things that were source of my problems and misery. I had to admit my playlist are quite happy and hopeful. And who would have thought it would help me in creating a new chapter in my life? :)

My feel good playlist:

- Viva La Vida by Coldplay
- Marry You by Bruno Mars
- I do by Colbie Calliat (the song she sang during the after party of Prince William and Kate Middleton's wedding :))
- Falling for you by Colbie Calliat
- Collide by Kid Rock and Sheryl Crow
- Collide by Howie Day (at hindi rin ako mahilig sa song na may "collide" na titles?)
- Let's Just Fall in Love again by Jason Castro
- Marry Me by Train
- Everything by Michael Buble
- Summer Rain by Matthew Morrison
- I'm Gonna Be Around by Michael Learns to Rock
- With Me by Sum 41 (this always reminds me of Chuck Bass and Blair Waldorf's limo scene during the end of Gossip Girl season 1 episode 7! Tanda ko talaga! Hahaha)
- You Got Me by Colbie Calliat (at hindi ko naman masyado na rin like si Colbie? )
- Starlight by Muse
- Fireworks by Katy Perry
- Born this Way by Lady Gaga
- On the Floor by J Lo (wala sa sobrang upbeat nya super like ko)


So there goes my baliw playlist… :P

Broken Glass

From: http://www.myemospace.com

This is one of the life-changing decisions I made in my life… Pardon me for my late post.



I know in myself that I am independent. But there were times I feel lost and confused. Lost because I feel like I don't have someone in my life who will take good care of me, that it took me a while to find which direction in life I am heading and confused because I really didn't know what to do with my life if I'm going to end my relationship.

From: deviantarttattoosgirls.blogspot.com

I must admit after the break up it left me into broken pieces… but it wasn't as painful like what I felt last January and February 2011. I know earlier this year that things have fell apart and changed but I am too afraid to admit that we cannot fix things the way they should be. And I am living in denial that some issues and problems we encountered last year cannot be resolved in just a few days or months. I know for the past 7 months I've been trying to hold on to broken shards of glass which is the representation of our fragile relationship. No matter how much I tried to fix and glue the pieces, the glass won't come back in its true form and those broken pieces I tried to patch left me wounded as ever. It hurts to see someone you used to loved cry at the very thought of ending things together. But it will be much worse if I still try to hold on knowing the truth that there would be no "us" in the future. I got so scared when he admitted to me that as of this moment there are no plans and goals for us. Only excuses and false hopes just to ward off the fear of losing our relationship… It hurts because the love you nurtured for years has fallen apart. It hurts because the promises and dreams you built were just castles in the sand. It hurts because the words he hurled at me during our endless arguments left me questioning our relationship and its value. It hurts because no matter how much I tried to see the light of things for us, I know that I am just delaying my burdens to ease the pain. Those delays did not help me and it just carry on for so many months that reached into my saturation and breaking point.

I am sad but relieved. Sad because I know there would be a special place for him in my heart which contains our glorious memories together. In those 6 years we've been together we also built friendship and connections. But I need to make a heart-wrenching decision. Decision that would help me move forward and start another chapter of my life. I feel relieved, because I know that I did the right decision which is to find my true happiness. Start my life with new hopes and promises. Dreams that is not built in sand castles but on sturdy rock which is a foundation for the better future. As I closed this chapter in my life, I want to start my life in a dreams that became reality and embrace the future with a smile and forgot the tears that fell from my eyes saying goodbye.